Future

So I'm writing to chronicle my boring life.

I am currently applying for fellowships for after I graduate. This is alot of work and I'm not sure I will even get one. All of this post-graduate effort has made me think alot about the future...and I'm worried. I guess its natural to be nervous about what the future holds, but I get the feeling that in a year from now my life will be completely different. I just hope it's for the better.

I was talking to a dear friend of mine yesterday and she was talking about her future. She's in medical school, but when she's done she wants to be a doctor who travels around the world. She wants to go live in other countries and experience new things. It got me thinking that maybe I want to do that too. I'm scared that I'll never have the opportunity to even travel. I mean its been almost 24 years and the farthest I've gone is Canada. :( Maybe I should be like Megan and just up and move to China. What a life changing experience!!

Also, all of this future thought has got me questioning all kinds of things I don't want to question...but that's enough of that. I guess I'm just such a control freak that I want all of the answers to everything now...but I guess that's why they say to enjoy the journey...right?