Broken

Here I am in this place again. Imagine Carrie Bradshaw in the Sex and the City Movie after Big leaves her at the alter....that's me. Minus the vodka, the friends, and the Mexican vaca.

I don't understand.

It's hard to love someone so much. It's hard to love someone and have expectations. It's hard to love flawed human beings. It's hard to give someone everything for over a year, to stick beside them through the highest of highs and the lowest of lows, and in the end...what??

The same behavior recurrs. The same shitty treatment. The same thing to happen over and over and over. The promises broken. The lies realized.

Then....

This place. Sobbing, hysterical, angry, broken, hurting, confused, abandoned, lonely, sick, lost.

I didn't even do anything.

I don't understand.

Broken...